Addendum to The Silver Fox Story

 

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          Last month a fox ate some stale crusts of bread

          Left out in my yard for squirrels and birds

          My weak flashlight-torch combined with my

          Ignorance (silver fox are very different from grey fox)

          Last night my cat, Cecil, and I watched for

          More bats and fireflies in almost-complete darkness

          While in my lap, I extinguished his collar

          Silent minutes passed until Cecil slowly turned to

          Stare below-back-down-behind the lawn-chair we were in

          My light revealed a nose-to-tail-black fox (with just a slight dusting of silver-ash)

          She dashed under my neighbor's fence without learning if there were any snacks left out

          There were not.  Not that night.

 

Silver Grey Fox on Picnic Table

 

grey fox on picnic table

silver fox on picnic table

          

          Evenings in late spring

 

          When temperatures are newly short sleeved and sweaters are no longer

          With daylight taking slightly longer to recede and the last of the Swifts

                    (or Turns, I don't know how to tell the difference)

          Bank and scree above the tree tops until they are all gone for their nests

          Then the first firefly of this year blinks his bold availability cross the yard

          While a hummingbird sneaks a nightcap before whirring to her branch

          And all bird and insect and reptile sounds echo away to near quietude 

          I take refuge from the mosquitoes on my screened-in back porch

          As the occasional bat dips and dives for those it can sense in the shadows

          

          My attention is focus-snagged on a relatively-loud and very distinct sound 

          Smacky chew-crunching like that of a dog (obviously nearby) and I recall

          There were still portions of leftover stale bread crusts on my picnic table

          My light reveals a grey silver fox (with a smaller head than I'd have imagined)

          Finishing what was too-stale by the previous day's corvids and squirrels

 

          It came back ten nights later to insure I got a better look

          Now, I know the difference (and rarity) between a silver and a grey fox

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Spiral Dynamics (Go On: Reading Curriculum)

 

          Confused by it all?  Want a way to understand why you are confused?  Do you have a desire to learn where and why every human who ever lived (and who will ever live) has done (and will do) what they are doing?  This book is mandatory reading for those who have finished listening to the audio essays, speeches, and guidance from Go On Part 1, before listening to Go On Part 2 (coming soon).

          In my present (May 2022) the Covid19 pandemic is less effective at killing humans than it had been for the last two years; Russia is less effective at murdering Ukrainians than most humans thought it would be (and--conversely--Ukrainians are more effective at defending themselves); the very-much un-united states has now become the fundamentalist theocracy that it has been attempting to become for decades; and I have survived an appendectomy and antibiotic-caused colitis symptoms as I strive to flow the rainbow-spiral.  

Note:  The authors of this book are blind to their own incompetence's academically intelligent (they both decided not to employ qualified editors and are completely clueless as to how to write a book almost everyone might enjoy reading).  However, if you already read this book and found it to be an easy read (and don't understand why I found it to be torture) congratulations on your PhD, professor! 

• Skip the doubly-extensive and poorly constructed introductions and absolutely do not begin reading at the front of the book.  Instead, begin by a scan of the chart on page 300-301.
• While reading the following portions, let your attention flow past any/all sentences which reference the author's penchant for: endlessly listing examples, obscure cultural references, name-dropping, and the author's incessant need to pat themselves on the back or point out how smart that they think they are.  [Think of this as you attempting to speed read.]
  
• The oddly confusing (and sometimes very wrong) cultural references are deeply rooted in the author's rich, old, white, privilege.  These sometimes humorous but never interesting to read pseudo-metaphorical references make this entire book seem like it was written for the audience of a 1996 magazine.
  
• Scan over the Yellow section (pages 274-285).  It is valuable.  The authors actually read and/or talked with people who are Yellow.  They themselves are not, but they want to be.
• Briefly scan over the Turquoise section (pages 286-292).  It is conjecture and hypothetical.  
• Read the Orange, Green, Blue, Red, and Purple sections (between pages 201 and 273).  It is not necessary to read them in any order.  If you are uninterested in some areas, skip it.
• Finish with Chapter 2 (pages 34-38).
• If you find this amount of information sufficient, that is all that is required to continue with the Go On project.
• If you want to read more (because you are a CEO, or a politician who recognizes a way to flow from Blue-Orange and can envision the calm peacefulness of Yellow) reading the rest of the book might help.
  

Course Curriculum (Go On, Part 1)

 

           Core coarse chores course curriculum (the first unnecessary words were left in-place because it's one of the ways to both differentiate, while—at the same time—showing how much our minds are different).  Another way to display the (obvious to me) different control mechanisms of my (Asperger's) brain/mind and yours is to point out that I am aware the phrase which begins after the first comma contains incorrect grammar.  I should have either used two gerunds: 'of differentiating while ... showing'.  Or none: 'both differentiate and ... show'.

 

          A third way would be to share some unimportant things from the pile of shit-I-have-coached/coaxed/coerced-into-my-mind.  This could also be an answer to:  "If someone wanted to begin studying Philosophy [with no desire to afford obtain a diploma, because they felt no need to prove (to others) they spent money and time learning about knowledge} where would that someone start?" 

          Start where you want.  But.  Maybe you might want to start at a point which allows you to gradually come to understand why you want—might GO ON wanting in the near future—to keep knowing which allows you to know more.  To understand why you know what you think you already might have known. 

         

 

          PS: When you get tangled in the flow of investigating one, or many, of these essays; pause and listen to some (or many) of the rhythms compiled in the last video.  Or just give yourself some space to locate the knots and time to grasp the rest.   It really is as simple as meditating listening without falling asleep.

Coincidental Synchronicity

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(pallet)

now y'll recall it

 

GO ON research notes (Feb 2022)

 

 

Merit Badge (Narcissist Hunter)

 

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All About You

 

          Above all, do not lie to yourself.  The person who lies to themself (and listens to their own lie) comes to a point that they can not distinguish the truth within them or around them and so loses all respect for themselves and for others.  And—having no respect—they cease to love.

                                        - Fydor Dostoevsky, The Brothers Karamazov

 

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end, always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened and that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger and that feels so rough
No you didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records and then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
But I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know

(chorus)

 

          In 2011 this song, by Gotye, Somebody That I Used To Know, quickly became an earworm grating on earbones.  Walk Off The Earth's cover was less grating because my eyebones were entertained by the unique performance.

          Since that time, I've found myself playing spot-the-narcissist frequently enough that, in 2021, I was awarded the Advanced Narcissist Hunter merit badge (a hand behind a back with two crossed fingers and a lighted gas lamp hanging over the wrist). 

 

          If you, dear reader, are struggling to understand (feigning confusion)—then, bless your black heart—you're the narcissist Dostoevsky and Gotye are describing.

 

 

 

 

 

more:

 

 Don't Act Like a Nail and Complain About Hammers

 

Three Ways to Identify

Feeling is the secret - Neville Goddard

 

 

          Lay down.  Get comfortable.  Play this 40-minute audio book (watching the video is not needed and headphones are not needed).

          If I were teaching an intermediate-level pass-fail course called:  Conscious Awareness: Meditation versus Mindfulness versus Prayer this would be a foundational class.  I would play the audio book in a classroom with everyone laying on a yoga mat (doors locked, lights off, phones put away) and then ask everyone to discuss.  Students would be given a week to submit an essay detailing their perspectives.  Just like many foundational classes, passing this class would be mandatory to enroll in more advanced classes. 

          Intermediate-level because there are some prerequisites.  One needs to already know about consciousness, brain chemistry, physiology, religious philosophy, and meditation.  Also, it is important to understand that the author adds quotes from the christian bible (as do other important philosophers) and why it is extremely valuable information none-the-less.  In fact, it is crucially important to discuss the various biblical quotes in a non-religious context (e.g. the reason Goddard uses the term 'prayer' instead of the more appropriate term: 'meditation').

How to Begin, Middle, and End

 

 

          If you don't have ten minutes to listen to this man's advice, now, today, then--whenever you learn that I died--find ten minutes at that point and listen to it.  And take everything he says during this TED talk as if some asshole you once called by my name was claiming this was the one piece of advice I wish I had gotten earlier in my life and the one piece of advice I wish I had passed along more often.  To you.