Gerund and Verbina [verb ending in ing, becoming a noun]
Insight Into Creativity: Art Transliteration
call-back to Under-Overwhelming essay |
To those who’ve chosen to jump off this cliff, heedless of the challenges, I commend you for your open-mindedness, willingness to try your brain at new concepts, and your marathon-level attention span (if you make it to the end).
And to those comfortable within this ken: I thank you—up-front—for perusing the word-imagery fabrications of a philosopher-artist such as myself. Please bear-with my liberal application of monsieur em-dash, madame hyphen, and cousin parenthesis.
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Transliteration normally refers to slowly transcribing/translating—one character, word, symbol or hieroglyph at a time—one language into another. Because art and poetry can seem like a foreign language, I’m going to crawl around inside my own gulliver and explain how I created both the two-dimensional artwork and poem titled: woad poem. (Links are provided to add superfluous details or permit examining referenced artwork. Did I mention this is a deep dive?)
Architect’s Eye, Engineer’s Ingenuity and the Passion of a Serial-Killer: When my time-to-create gland woke-up from a nap, I “found” about 50 similarly-stark images and began to experiment—slicing, smoothing, spinning, and fine-tuning. After many days of failing to get even a tickle of that solving-the-puzzle feeling (I never became fully-absorbed) I stopped trying to hammer-tune this
A Realization-Reenactment (Focused on Aesthetics): While doing the aforementioned disappointed-staring and title-devising, my attention kept returning to the left-side of the artwork. What was drawing my eye? Was I merely recognizing the first found-image pearl in that section? Maybe a change in distance? Thumbnail mode caused my interest to definitely be re-piqued, but, in close-up, the miasma of interlocking/overlapping shadows, edges, silhouettes, and flimsy fragments of fifty female photo-montaged forms forced my curiosity to flee (whew). But, the leftmost portion—no matter if distant or full-screen—remained intriguing and its abstract-composites continued to tantalize.
A Literal Return to the Drawing Board: With the leftmost portion as a focal-point, I restarted the cut-stitch-paste-gluing engine. This lasted for a few daze. After becoming deeply engrossed in the process, trimming and/or deleting about fifteen of the most detailed original images, changing the color pallet on at least ten, and totally redesigning the size and focus, the resulting artwork works. For me. And that’s all a creator can use to determine finish-quality. It is appropriately asymmetrical, contains both blurred and crisp details, and the rest is mere suggestion, hint, and supposition. Pleasing to the eye. Maybe a smidgen-creepy, but that adds to the allure.
The More Difficult the Self-Challenges the Less Challenging the Self-Difficulties: Sounds like an aphorism, but challenging myself is a successful way to keep creating. My art keeps me learning. I decided to craft a poem to accompany this artwork, incorporating a phrase I coined in a letter:
...The little things are the big things. The big things might be able to take care of themselves, but ‘death by a million tiny cuts’—as metaphor—has an antithesis ‘bliss by a million tiny kisses’...Critics Refer to This Next Part as a Pointless Tangent; I Prefer to Call it a Brief Aside: I think it helps to think about a few claims made by Nietzsche in his 1872 work, The Birth of Tragedy from the Spirit of Music:
...the existence of mankind only appears to be justifiable when it is viewed as an aesthetic phenomenon...Nietzsche's book is a dense, complexly-expansive, review of classical Greek dramatic theater and music. Fourteen years later, in 1886, it was republished as The Birth of Tragedy, or: Hellenism and Pessimism with a second preface—written by Nietzsche himself—titled An Attempt at Self-Criticism. (The first preface, in both, was written by the composer Richard Wagner . . . yes that Wagner, of antisemitism infamy.)
...the highest form of artistic creation depends on some form of tension between opposing forces...
I found this excerpt from his self-criticism poignant, not only because he describes yours-truly, but he appears to be describing (with sarcastic self-deprecation) his “target audience”:
...artists with analytical tendencies with a capacity for retrospection (the type whom it’s always necessary to seek-out but with-whom one never wants to seek) who are also full of psychological innovations and artist’s-secrets...The Nuts and Brain-Bolts Leading Up to My Two Dimensional Artwork waod poem: My artwork descriptions, above, are definitely synopsis after-the-act. I was not thinking about how my mind was working as it was creating. (I understand some with less high-functioning autism are hampered by meta-meta thoughts-about-thoughts and—unfortunately—get bogged down, can't climb out of their own way, and suffer because of it.) In looking back, I recall that my odd-intuitive-creative neurons (my only nod to NEFND in this essay) encouraged my imagination, which influenced me to begin with the strong-contrast nude I caught in my butterfly net, which—in-turn—eventually led me to craft the final “found image” collage-compilation from dozens of (fair-use-borrowed or copyright-stolen*) erotic images.
I cropped the blackspace, mirror-flipped it, imagined the word poem reversed-upsidedown would approximate the word waod. [Climbing deeper: Actually, my thoughts snag-focused on the ash diphthong in the word aesthetic and, subsequently, I zoomed in on the visual near-symmetricality of m-w and p-d...which came very near (rch-close) to a voila moment...and a title was born.] Then I added the words, as title, at the mirror point and extended a small amount of white-grey to the left-edge's mirror point (literally a point) because I wanted to “break the rectangle rule” just a tiny bit.
The Bizarre Gears-and-Gristle-Soup Beneath the Circuitry of the Poem: With this, I had a tall, thin, abstract image, which I could place vertically—adjacent to my as-yet-unwritten poem. I also had a title. And, I had the phrase: bliss by a billion tiny kisses. That was
rarely are there anymore breathtaking dénouements in this place outside of
This place? . .the world . . . the Internet . . . this blog . . . or . . .
Since I linked a word in the first line, I chose to do it again. My second link was to the definition of idiom, which stumbled on and coin a phrase, are examples of. My third line breaks the pattern (does not end in a word which normally begins a phrase) and, instead of linking to the definition of a word, links to the description of a ancient torture technique called Lingchi, which I point out is the opposite of my bliss by a billion tiny kisses.
My forth line, however, does end in a preposition, and I continue the pattern by describing two more different types of cutting (the first medical the second figurative).
The fifth line continues the phrase begun at the end of the forth (with no links) but contains a line derived from my previous essay pertaining to underwhelming and overwhelming events: in that essay I posit that momentous events aid in the formation of long-term memories (which is also connected to this deep dive's first image). More important to this poem, in this line, I begin with a statement and turn it into a question which suggests we all fail to take notice when we happen to do something for the first time in our lives (like thinking about how this poem was word-smithed).
In the seventh line I continue the sentence with the idea that when I posted the poem it would be at the top of my blog (metaphorically the capstone) which is a series of stories one-atop-the-previous (like a totem pole)—two different metaphors in one, referred to mixing metaphors, which is also a grammatical no-no. And I provide a link to who was president when I began the blog in 2004:
The eighth line begins a new sentence, which jars the brain slightly, because line seven did not end in a period and this line did not begin with a capital letter (the intent is to force readers to engage level 2 thinking and read slower).
The tenth and eleventh lines, are thematically connected to previous ones (time-frames related to US presidential administrations), which might-be building toward a plot? Maybe, possibly? [Obviously this was written before-during Trump’s first impeachment, otherwise it would have been plural (impeachments).]
* Subject for another day’s essay. “Most-people” are unable to be objective and always bring their personal agenda to a fair-use versus copyright debate. I always try to give credit to creative people, even when all they do is screech “mine.mine.mine.” (But I realize I do not have to pay my landlord with the proceeds of my creativity.) I disdain people
GREYESCAPEXTRAIL
HEX - GON
‶They were just talking about the phrase: taking one's own council, so I told them all about that hex-gon concept. I mentioned it to you—kinda briefly—last time, right?″
‶YahBut...Remind me...Is that hex gone, like in: 'we payed Witch Hulda to make her hex gone potion' or hexagon, as in: 'Gamey Greta moved her trivial pursuit token into the middle hexagon'?″
‶Both. Neither. I must not've splaind it goodnuf. Six letters: H E X space G O N. Supposed to bring to mind both Witch Hulda's potion and Gamey Greta's final question.″
‶AaahOk...I remember there were six scales, but I don't remember the traits on em...Oh and...each of the six were scored from one to six...Umm, I'm wrong...They were scored A B C D E F and, depending on what letters you picked, you got a different result...reminded me of the Myers Briggs.″
‶The first trait is your benevolence - avarice scale. What would your letter be? You're making a face. Izit cauzeya need help with a few examples? Or—like Nancy Normal—you don't wanna gointa any details today?″
‶Passive aggressive much?″
‶I'm sorry I said like Nancy Normal. I shouldn't have been so pushy.″‶IzzFine...I don't mind...But, I guess I could use help defining avarice and benevolence...and, maybe, sketch it out so I can remember this time.″
‶LemmeGeddisStraight...if default mode is either: way too much, mostly attempted, or occurred slightly more than half of the time...you're saying it's possible for a person to be too benevolent?..And...are you saying this isn't for children?″
‶OhIsee...with too much candor, people's feelings can get hurt by your blunt words; and too much guile people might suspect they're being lied to or deceived...neither's a way to win friends and influence enemies!″
‶Right. Third trait: your amity - enmity scale. Amity is behaving peacefully and harmoniously; and enmity is hostile, antagonistic behavior.″
‶Wow...I sure can't imagine anyone labeling themselves hostile-to-a-fault...But I know a few who seem to always be sullen or angry or they're tryin to pick a fight...Seems this scale would be better if it were scored by someone who could be objective...I think people will just lie about themselves.″
‶Whaa...you just mumble?..somethin like they'd either learn to accept themself or they'd work on fixing their...cranky hair.″
‶Um...you think I'm judgemental and not very perceptive?″
‶The Myers-Briggs doesn't say that or work that way, but—now that I hear you say it out loud—I did sound that way. I apologize. My guess would be: you determined that you were either an ESFJ or an ENFJ. But that can change over time. Depends on how long ago you took it.″
‶Ohyup...ESFJ...the way I remembered it was entertainment-sports-foot-joy. What would be yours?..Not extravert...so your first letter is I for intravert. What's the S or N stand for?..I forget.″
‶Sensing or Intuition. When I first took it, I was an INTJ; the
way I recall that is: intelligent-jerk. But, most recently, I was
INTP, so—intelligent-prick?″
‶Haaa...So...this one's got six letters instead of four...you should name it...cuz...someone could be, like, an ABACAB...I'm pretty sure that there's a hole in there somewhere.″
‶Okthen...And the last on the Agenda Scale?″
‶Noprob...Thanks for this...the Agenda Scale...It's gonna give me shit to think about for days.″
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ambivalence |
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Beau of the Fifth Column
Socrates Taught Plato How to Turn Prehistory Into History
Prehistory did not begin when our universe coalesced, when our galaxy began to rotate together, when gravity caused our star's fusion, or when oceans collected. It also didn't begin when our moon began to spin overhead, when single-cellular life started, or even when complex life evolved. Those events occurred billions of years ago.
We humans easily understand the word year because we have personal reference points, which we can empirically measure. (In the previous 365 days, the covid19 pandemic killed over 500,000 Americans and 2.5 million worldwide.) Some of us might be able to think in terms of a hundred years, because we understand it's possible to live that long. However, when we learn that over a century ago, the 1918 pandemic killed 50 million people, we begin to lose the related-to-me focus. And when we read that more than five centuries ago, the bubonic plague killed maybe 200 million people? We're mentally drifting without a point of personal reference.
And that's only half of a millennium in the past! The numbers: billion (a thousand million) and million (a thousand thousand) are completely non-relatable. Our minds struggle to grasp-comprehend (or even imagine) what it means when we hear:
Prehistory began when millions of years ago, some of our stone-age, bipedal, hominid ancestors crafted tools, buried their dead, worked collectively in order to survive, and decided it would be valuable to start communicating with their future selves.
Those someones thought it would help to augment their memories. And they started marking with chalk or soft stone or charcoal on flat surfaces; tieing knots in rope; cutting gouges in wood; making impressions in mud or clay; burning or dieing on hides; etcetera. This lasted for hundreds of millennia. Time ate all their chalkboards and etch-a-sketches; toys and utensils; caves and corpses, until a confluence of location, luck, and lack-of-liquid (ll&lol™) made it possible for their distant descendants (us) to unearth a few of their grocery lists, calendars, and guidebooks.
- The fossil record contains evidence anatomical homo sapiens existed at least 250,000 years ago.
- Cave painting and art has been found which has been dated to more than 45,000 years ago.
- Earth's magnetic poles reverse (then reverse back 800 years later) about 42,000 years ago.
- Sculptures and jewelry have been carbon dated to more than 35,000 years ago.
- Standing stones and stone structures date to more than 10,000 years ago.
- Cuneiform writing (indentations in clay) date from 5,000 years ago (Bronze Age, starts in areas).
- Egyptian pyramids and hieroglyphs date from 4,500 years ago (Ancient Historical Era starts in areas).
- Stonehenge stones date from about 4,400 years ago.
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Gilgamesh epic poems (Sumeria) on stone/clay tablets from 4,000 years ago.
- Chinese logosyllabic writing dates from 3,500 years ago.
- Hindu texts began to be written/edited about 3,500 years ago (Iron Age, starts in areas).
- Pueblo dwellings and cliff houses date from 3,200 years ago (Stone Age mostly ends).
- Hebrew bible began to be written/edited about 2,800 years ago (Bronze Age mostly ends).
- Nazca lines (Peru) date from 2,500 years ago.
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Philosopher
Confucius
of Zou (China) reportedly lived 2,500 years ago.
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Philosopher
Buddha
of Lumbini (Nepal) reportedly lived 2,500 years ago.
- Philosopher Socrates of Athens (Greece) reportedly lived 2,400 years ago.
- Philosopher Zhuang of Dao (China) began to be written/edited 2,400 years ago.
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Philosopher
Epicurus
of Samos (Greece) reportedly lived 2,300 years ago.
- Sandstone city of Petra (Jordan) begun carving in stone cliffs 2,000 years ago.
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Philosopher-statesman
Seneca
of Cordoba (Spain) reportedly lived 1,950 years ago.
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Philosopher-slave
Epictetus
of Hierapolis (Turkey) reportedly lived 1,950 years ago.
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Philosopher-emperor
Marcus Aurelius
of Rome (Italy) reportedly lived 1,900 years ago.
- Christian bible began to be written/edited about 1,800 years ago.
- Roman empire began to shrink/collapse about 1,500 years ago (Modern Era begins in areas).
- Muslim quran began to be written/edited about 1,400 years ago (Iron Age mostly ends).
Rise & fall of the Roman Empire |
In my opinion, Socrates was not actually a man who lived in the -5 century. He was too perfect of a caricature and is credited with too many well-thought-out philosophies (as would any character be, who's an amalgam-pilation of several philosopher-authors imaginations).
- His mother was a midwife and his father a stonemason. As an adult, Socrates referrs to himself as a midwife (helping 'birth new ideas' by asking 'what is it?') and he builds/constructs theories using dialectic Q&A's and logical arguments. This is just one example of many contrived coincidences.
- He was uniquely ugly, odd, and dressed without care (bulging & askew eyes; a pig nose; short and fat; unkempt/disheveled dress). Staged-contrast: overt visual flaws while speaking flawlessly.
- He "exploded into existence" on the pages of many playwrights/authors, but only after his death.
- His publicly ordered execution was, in actuality, a calmly accepted suicide (he could have chosen exile, but didn't). He willingly carried out his suicide by drinking hemlock tea. What a hero! What a soliloquy!
- Hemlock poison paralyzes the diaphragm and respiratory system. Plato's description of Socrates's death (itself, told from a fictional character's POV) details a growing numbness beginning in his feet and traveling up his body, eventually killing Socrates when it reached his heart. Someone bitten by a cobra might die in this manner. Do we need any more evidence Plato's faux description was fabricated?
I suspect—if Socrates was a real person—he was not at all the figurehead and intellectual powerhouse depicted in "his student's" books. But, since Plato's and Aristotle's (Et al.) words survived, they are considered to be the first to quote what they heard "prehistory say". I think they were creative nonfiction writers (like all successful theo-philosophical authors/editors must become, to reach and hold an audience).
... Socrates showed displeasure with those who thought him to be poor by stating: 'One can be rich, even with very little, on the condition that one has
limited his needs. Wealth is just the excess of what one has, over
what one requires.' ... — Xenophon’s Oeconomicus, circa 360 (700+ years after Socrates "died")
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Redux: "I Cecil You, Too" (First Fortnight in February)
I have never celebrated the fake holiday in mid-February. It's a scam holiday which businesses use to sell cards, flowers, candy, and all that foolish shit. I give gifts or messages of love whenever the time feels right, not when someone's calendar says I'm supposed to.
Anyway—what the fuck is this thing we all have labelled with the word: LOVE? I know what mix of emotions I feel/have felt for those I've loved and do love (not a very large list) but it's amazingly hard to explain how certain fluctuations in my brain's chemicals affect my heart/brain/gut/libido and even harder to understand/compare when others explain their "feelings of love". We just assume everyone must be feeling the same way we feel when we use the same words they use.
"See that color? That is what I have labelled: Red."
"Oh, that's red? Ok, I'll begin to refer to everything which is colored that way: red. Umm, what about when I feel all these crazy feelings at the same time? I need a label, so that when I am feeling all these feelings I do not need to explain each of them every time."
"That is labelled: Love."
"What about all those same feelings, except one: I don't want to be physically intimate?"
"Still labelled: Love. You could add the word Platonic, but that'll require an explanation because that word has different interpretations."
"What about when I feel all those feelings for my pet?"
"When I say, I love my cat, Cecil, I think I must be misusing the word 'love'. Instead, I should-maybe find a word which is a compound for the meanings of the words: pride, enjoyment, happiness and
I'm proud of Cecil's training and I enjoy his 'loving' attention; he never makes me angry (mostly because he can't communicate with words, has no malice, and enjoys my company); and I admire him for his actions, looks, demeanor, and thoughtfulness (Is he being thoughtful? Am I just anthropomorphizing?). Maybe I should consider his name, Cecil, to be a label for what I feel about him—so when I say: "I Cecil you," I'm currently feeling a combination of pride/enjoyment/happiness/admiration for you.
When I receive an "I love you" I—almost never—respond with an "I love you too".
It's wrong to treat an I love you as if it requires a mandatory reply. It is not supposed to be interpreted as if it were the question: Do you love me? Also, it should not become a replacement phrase for goodbye. When people do that, they cause their incessant I love you's to lose their value. Eventually, it becomes a throw-away line. If said all the time, what do they say when they really want someone to know they have caused a rush of complicated emotions which are identified (when felt all at the same time) as the feeling of love?
Recap: "I Love You"—all three words—are reserved for when the emotion of love is actually being felt. I do not want my I love you to cause an immediate response of I love you too. I prefer either no reply or a response like: "those words make me feel good," or "Thank you," or "I like it when you tell me that," or "those words make me happy," or "when you say that, I get warm inside". It is better that the person you love smiles and says nothing, and some time in the future, if they tell me they are currently feeling the emotion they call love—for me—I know they're feeling love at that moment and I can decide to reply with my present feelings, or not to reply. I appreciate their statement of love when they are feeling it and then I consider what I did to make them feel that way. This is my normal.
Denise now says I love you to each of her children many times a day. Each of her kids reply with a I love you too. I see and hear their devotion and their respect. With them, it does not seem to be a "worn out phrase" or a "throw away line". In fact, when a child is upset (and, intentionally, does not reply to their mother's I love you) they—routinely—apologize (later) and remind her that they love her.
I am now an old distant relative with whom respectful cheek bumps may be apropos. And, now, I am adjusting to her normal. Now, I reply to her I love you with an I love you, too.