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Book Recommendation (Go On Project)

 
I have never read a book of this magnitude.  The Book of Not Knowing, by Peter Ralston, took about two months to read every one of the 580-pages, allowing myself sufficient time to accomplish all the contemplation-exercises and re-read parts which I required to be reminded of.
 
Once finished, I immediately began re-reading.  (At time of typing, I'm 32 pages into my second-read of this "consciousness bible".)  I was able to discern my Self after 537 pages and, consequently, became conscious of Being - for my first time. 

My impulse to re-read it, stemmed from an immense desire to learn if my current state of consciousness (after the unexpected and unforeseen "level up") might add a better perspective on the experience.  

Climbing the tallest mountain available on Earth, seems impossible to accomplish (until you reach the summit and surprise yourself that you're there).  Climbing the tallest mountain available on Earth - a second time - with an awareness that you are walking in your own footsteps, brings with it, an entirely new perspective.  An entirely new perspective on your Self.  

If I were to quickly describe the book, I would note that every paragraph is numbered.  The last paragraph is 26.54 (the fifty-fourth paragraph of the twenty-sixth chapter).  Every paragraph is comprised of simple-to-understand words; not overly-complex sentences; and (amazingly) adheres to the initially stated overall-explanation of: how to best understand your Self and become conscious of Being.

It is possible to read this book as a guidebook (with no intent to immerse yourself in the contemplation exercises) and to come out the other end simply, "more informed".

Many people might try to climb the tallest mountain available on Earth before they are in a sufficiently prepared mental condition.  Some of those might choose to quit part-way, but that's only those climber's selves looking out for their well-being and encouraging them to practice on smaller slopes and come back when they are better prepared to Go On.

I have obtained more of Peter Ralston's books.  I feel it is necessary to mention the fantastic editing by Laura Ralston - it is the best edited book I have ever been privileged to absorb.

Silhouette of New England

 
 
The silhouette of New England is never confused with the actual land that is occupied (at time-of-writing) by six regional legal-social-cultural human jurisdictions (referred to as 'states') in the northeastern-most portion of the nation currently referred to with the name "United States of America".
 
After the collection of humans with the worst agenda score [FFFFFA] eradicated and conquered the indigenous tribes who—even when foolishly considering their multiple tribal-nations as a conglomerate—possessed better agenda scores on-average [CDCCBC], the FFFFFA-ing humans then decided to "brand" their nascent country with a name starting with an ironic adjective!
 
The FFFFFA never considered their name-brand might be interpreted to mean: 'linked-in-a-contiguous-manner'.  No.  Instead, they wanted all current and future enemies to realize: "Those genocidal maniacs are united in their desire to keep killing and enslaving other human beings."
 
Those horrible motherfuckers were planning on going the distance.  They immigrated, to this part of the American continent, with the best butcher-murder tools strapped to their luggage.  Most of the FFFFFA-agenda-possessing humans were fringe-level religious zealots; outcasts in their home countries for (mostly) legitimate reasons.  These FFFFFA-hate-mongers wanted a place where they could play all-grown-up make-believe and kill any and every human who might attempt to prevent or even condemn their fervently-believed (imaginary) dogmatically-based activities.
 
They were actively planning (and eagerly hoping) to engage in a genocide (Even as they began to sail against the storms across the Atlantic ocean.)  By the 18th century the survivors were 90-95% successful.  And they all thought of themselves as: The 'best and most-honorable' in the 100% successful Indian Wars.  (Just as if Adolf Hitler's Third Reich had won, the German Aryan Nation would consider that they won the Jew War.)
 
Call a genocide "a war" and your ancestors will be fooled into thinking *there were bad people behaving badly on both sides*—and this is why the European-descendants of the pilgrims (Calvinists, Quakers, Amish, Mennonites, et cetera) might choose to not think badly of their not-so-great grandparents from centuries past.  Your ancestors (and mine) were all the worst-of-the-worst. 
 
But, this is not a chapter in the "Wake The Fuck Up America" textbook.  Nor is this a preface to the horrible truths of our ancestral-FFFFFA-swamp, (where most present-day Caucasian's DNA originated).

My intent is to drive-hard on the point I made at the beginning:  The silhouette of New England is never confused with the land itself.  Nor is it confused with the people who currently inhabit (or previously inhabited) the land.  Nor is it ever considered to be synonymous with: birds, beetles, trees, titmice, dinosaurs, deli-groceries, or anything tangible on the portion of current-epoch Earth, which the silhouette artwork might communicate when glanced at. 
 
That is all an artwork of this type requires:  A GLANCE.  
 
In that glance, the viewer either recognizes the shadow-image traced on construction paper (which is why long hair is gathered) or the viewer does not recognize the profile.  Nonetheless, the glance is never considered to be anything more than an attempt to capture a "simple outline".
 
Your Self is a complex collection of memories, beliefs, fantasy-imaginary futures, assumptions, day-dreams, nightmares, emotionally-connected experiences, and programmed behaviors.  It is something you GLANCE at, when asked to, "describe yourself" (by a potential employer, potential friend, potential partner, et cetera).  If you take the agenda test, you will spend some time considering your current behaviors/experiences/beliefs and decide which collection of six-letters is yours for today.  Tomorrow, your letters could be different.  Yesterday, your letters could have been different.  
 
You would never confuse the silhouette of yourself with your actual Self.  You know the map is not the terrain.  A silhouette of a map is not even a useful map (but it might be nice to take out at parties).
 
Knowing where you fall on each of the six scales [Benevolent - Avaricious; Candor - Guile; Anmity - Enmity; Integrity - Nefariousness; Pragmatic - Dogmatic; and Certainty - Ambivalence] requires you to engage your Self to think about (and become-aware of) where-you-wish-you-were compared with where-you-realize-you-actually-are.  That is (almost always) comparing who the future-you might be with who the past-you has been (up to now).  

Now you, is never the you that you think of when thinking of your self.  Your Self was (and your memories confirm that) and your Self might be (and your dreams, plans, and hopes confirm that).
 
Time makes us think in broad generalities.  The gap between who you were when you began to read this article and who you will be when you finish it, is merely a vague memory of:  "I read an article wherein Veach described some things he believed to be true about some of his ancestors (FFFFFA immigrants from England and Wales) and some of his partner's ancestors (CBCCDC natives from before the genocide)."
 
Your Self may or may-not choose to incorporate some of my beliefs.  That is your Self at work.   Helping you to survive.  That is your Self's only real job.  And, if anything-I-related caused you to experience a feeling of discomfort/unease/anger that was your Self telling you "This Information Conflicts With Data Previously Stored".
 
Then—depending on how much dogmatic-devotion you currently correlate with the person (teacher, parent, spouse, pastor, et cetera) or the organization (church, school, club, friend-group, et cetera) who told you the Previously Stored Data—your Self will either replace the Previously Stored Data with this New Data - or - it will discard the stupid-Veach-beliefs and, soon, forget about them altogether. 

My Self has learned to trust the truthfulness and truth-fullness it experiences when my Self pauses its thoughts about the past and, at-the-same-time, pauses its thoughts about the future.  Only allowing the current unfolding of time to pass along one-second a second . . . without ever allowing the experience of Being to Be anything contemplated relative to my Self's associations.  No past.  No future.  Only conscious of the gap between the past and future.  Only the gap.  Nothing related to memories.  Nothing related to plans.  Being conscious of Being In Now, with no Self interpreting, is (as far as I can tell after only a few weeks) becoming aware—in a glance—of the AAAAAA which resides inside every.
 
          For those who finished this article unscathed, I offer this parting gift:
 
                    - Scroll to the top of this article; tip your head, right-ear toward right-shoulder; examine the silhouette of New England (not the snapperhead logo and not my inner feminine silhouette).
 
                    - It looks like a Scottish Terrier.  In mid-bark!
 
                    - If I meet a Scottish Terrier named New(t) England, at any time in my Self's future, I will assume that Scottie dog's owner either read this article - or - already noticed the resemblance before (or after) I did, and is as fluently-capable of pareidolia as I.
 
 
 
Go On, Get Satiated:

 
 

Multiple Choice Puzzle (Go On Project)


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T-shirt #1      (Front) Your Coping Mechanism's Showing          (Back) My Coping Mechanism's Showing

T-shirt #2      (Front) My Coping Mechanism's Showing          (Back) Your Coping Mechanism's Showing

         ---- Check at least one box ---- Check no more than three boxes ---- Check your thinking-in-action ----

🗆 I would feel better wearing T-shirt #1 (compared to T-shirt #2)

🗆 I would feel worse wearing T-Shirt #1 (compared to T-shirt #2)

🗆 T-shirt #2 is interpreted as a Join-The-Club shirt.  It is proclaiming *with a wink* I'm honest and self-aware.  I accept your eyes on my back with a "tease" because "everyone displays their coping mechanism".

🗆 T-shirt #1 is interpreted as a Leading-The-Club shirt.  It is stating "everyone's hope (that their coping mechanism is not visible) is wrong".  I assume it goes without saying (even though the 'fine print' on my back says it) that I'm also a club member. 

🗆 Because I have no mental or emotional reaction(s) to either shirt - or - I'm neutral, without emotion, when considering both shirts; I would be willing to wear either of them without qualm or hesitation.

🗆 Both shirts make me experience uncomfortable emotions.  I would wear neither shirt.  Ever.

🗆 I decline to consider these questions or to participate in this specific evaluation questionnaire. 

🗆 I would also be enthusiastically-willing to wear a baseball-style cap, bearing the challenge: "Ask Me Why!" displayed on the front. 

    Answers (and reasons for them) may be discussed during our next Self-Being meeting.

 Keep Going Onward:

test your AI savvy

First Conceptual Steps (pre-Go On Project)

Pop Quiz 1 - Go On Project

 
     Consider the above-linked You Tube Playlist (≅100 minutes for first loop) a foundational element of this course.  It is a tool.  Listening to it (or something similar to it) while mentally working thru the below quiz will enhance/hone your ability to learn to identify your Self and to Go On to become consciously aware of Being.
 
     There are several purposes (more than are explained in these pop-quiz instructions) designed into this looping 21-song mix-tape.
 
     During the first listen, your awareness of your Self's preferences, will check some boxes:
            ðŸ—† This is the first time I have heard this song - and,
                    ðŸ—† I enjoy this song - or,
                    🗆 I do not enjoy this song.
            🗆 I have heard this song before - and,
                    ðŸ—† I do not mind listening to it again - or,
                    ðŸ—† I dislike being forced to listen to it.
            🗆 This is a random selection of music.  There is no real reason for their selection or order.
            🗆 Occasionally, I notice a connection between some of the songs.  Those connections are all in my imagination, because, listening to them in-this-order forces me to associate them together and to assume connections which do not actually exist.
            🗆 Every song is related to the one preceding it in the loop.  Some of those connections are instantly obvious, others take time to realize.
            ðŸ—† Every song is somehow-connected to every other song.  The entire loop tells a single story using lyrics, melodies, emotions, rhythm, et cetera.      
 
     During repeated listening, you should focus on evaluating your emotions as they rise into your awareness and then fade from your awareness (to be soon-replaced with another):
             🗆 Happy (as in: pleasurably content, comfortable, relaxed, et cetera).
                    🗆 Nostalgia?
                    🗆 Toe-tapping, leg-bouncing?
                    🗆 Goosebumps or chills?
             🗆 Ecstatic (as in: energized, dancing or urge to dance, thrilled, et cetera).
                    🗆 Racing heart?
                    🗆 Tears-of-joy (or a 'bubbling up inside' urge to cry)?
             🗆 Neutral (as in: emotionless, placid, uninterested, not-worth-your-time, et cetera).
                    🗆 Dopamine-source(s) asking for your Self to pay them some attention?
             🗆 Uncomfortable (as in: angry, fearful, bored, confused, disconcerted, pissed-off, et cetera).
                    🗆 This era of music is not from my era.
                    🗆 The ethnicity of the musicians are not my ethnicity.
                    🗆 The lyrics in the song are too difficult to understand.
                    🗆 There are mostly instrumentals and odd-sounds (or the instrumental breaks are too long).
                    🗆 I like some of that artist's music, but this is not a song I'm familiar with.  Nobody I know listens to this.
                    🗆 Why would I intentionally make myself uncomfortable in order to evaluate the under-lying reason(s) that my Self decided (back in my distant long-ago and long-forgotten) that it did not like this music!?

    I can answer that one! . . . Because your current-emotions aren't connected to the long-ago decision-thought(s) which still cause them.  They come from different sources inside your Self.  You think that they're one-and-the-same because they (seem) to happen instantaneously-together.  They do not.  The separation is rarely distinguishable (less than a fraction of a fraction of a second).  Once you recognize the decision-thought which causes your Self to choose to *feel* a negative emotion -- if your today-Self does not want to continue to feel that emotion any more -- you can un-hitch the negative emotion(s) from the decision-thought that originated them.  First, you need to contemplate why you experience negative emotions connected to a song.  Dig down.  Keep asking yourself where the idea came from.  Ask, 'why do I dislike this?'  If it does not come.  That's ok.  Keep listening.  Keep thinking about your feelings.  You don't need to focus on the reasons you like a song.
 
     In the future, you will need to contemplate strong negative emotions related to family members, painful relationships, life-altering experiences, et cetera.  That might (will) be difficult.  This is just music tastes!  Call this:  "Introduction to How To Contemplate Your Negative-Feelings".    

     Hey, professor Veach, since you have already said, 'This is just music and everyone has music they like and music they don't like', why is this quiz important to eventually becoming aware of Self and conscious of Being?

     That question almost answers itself.  Music preferences are a relatively wide-spread reality in today's culture.  Therefore it's a simple issue to take this quiz and immediately be able to realize our preconditioned and self-programmed music tastes.  We know how to listen to music and how to know if something new-to-you might "fit" into your current tastes.   Now, all you need to do is allow yourself to keep listening to these 21 songs in-entirety.  No cherry-picking.  No stopping mid-song or mid-playlist.  Give yourself 100 minutes and focus on your emotions. 
 
     This loop exists as a continuous 100 minute video.  Because of US copyright laws, it is only possible for me to send this video-quiz via email.  Let me know if you are interested (veachglines@gmail).
 
     Also, it is recommended you use ad-free YouTube Premium and high-quality headphones. 
 
     This is a self graded quiz. 
 

  
 
 
 
 
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